Depression - Personal Essay

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and started recollecting the passions that I use to enjoy. My first course of actions was to salvage

the friendships I severed because of my love/hate relationship with isolation. It was a difficult

task that I was prepared to face, because I longed for human interaction. Luckily for me, my

friends were more than understanding as to why I haven’t contacted them in over nine months.

Most of them were just happy that I contacted them. With that situation settled I had to tackle my

second obstacle the issue of my weight. My mother was more than eager than to assist me in

helping me in that. With her help I joined fitness center that catapulted me into my new fitness

journey. I can not begin to tell you how invigorating and satisfying it felt to sweat out all the pain

and fat that I accumulated unto myself.

My final obstacle was to get right with God. I couldn’t help but feel guilty for neglecting

God throughout my time in depression I do not know if I blamed him or I just like to reject. But I

felt that in order for me to get my life together I needed God to be the center. One day on campus

I felt so convicted with a longing to be with God again. I locked myself in a study room on

campus and cried out to God for forgiveness. Almost Immediately I felt my burdens elevated

from my self unto Jesus Christ. Christ said in Matthew 11:28 “Come unto me, all ye that labor

and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Now, I’m not saying all my problems vanished. I

still have issues to conquer, but it is reassuring to know that now I’m not trying to fight them on

my own. I have Christ, family, and friends. After this beautiful realization I decided to take life

full on. I kept up with my health routine, and I lost ten pounds! I started focusing more on my

education and started to excel in my classes. So far I’ve had nothing less than an A minus. And

most importantly I triumphantly defeated depression. K.O!

Would it be weird to say I’m glad that I had depression? I wouldn’t wish this sickness on

anyone, even the people I detest the most. But when you conquer an illness like depression it just

makes you so much stronger. I could have quit or be content in the situation I was in, but I said

screw that. I’m here for a purpose and it’s not to be pitied all my life. Now, I feel like I can take

on anything even an incoming train. I haven’t been this motivated to excel since elementary

school. What I learned through my depression is that God designed me to be strong, intelligent,

and resilient in all situations. And I know he wouldn’t allow me to go through anything I

could not overcome. I am happy to say that I Stephanie Chukwu will make it. Failure,

she has no longer has any hold over me.