Labor or Life

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I was still shaking thought the whole conversation and now it was even harder for me see or even speak but I still understood everything that was happening at that moment. I tried to sign the paper but I was shaking so hard all that came out were a whole bunch of scribbles. I was rushed the other room where they started cutting open my stomach and taking my son out. It was the best feeling in the world to hear his cry, but then I realize I couldn’t hold my son until they get my seizer under control. They made it hard for me to believe that I would be able to care for him. The doctor said with a smile, “Fiona, I know this is hard for you but everything is going to great, just need to get this medication in your blood stream to stop the seizer.” It took 25 minutes for the medication to work then I held my baby boy for the first time. All that pain and shaking then was wiped out of my memory.

This changed my outlook on life. I’m very lucky to be still alive and never knew labor could feel like this might just be my last day and the start of another. It was very hard but I and my son made it through and we love every minute together because you never know when your time will come. Now my days are long and my nights are even longer, because before I went through all of this my life was easy. I would go to school then that was my time to whatever I wanted too. As of now I work to jobs to support my family and go to college and raise my son. I don’t know what free time is and I don’t ever doing anything without my son. this also changed my life because all of my friends that I had before I have a child, are no longer around because I can’t do everything they want to do. I love every minute I have with my son and that’s all that matters to me now, I feel that I have grown for the better because of my son. I hope you feel the same way when you have a child. My son changed my life for the better, and I will always choose life because I have to take care of my pride and joy.