Living with My Flaws

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I already knew my sexual preference since I was in Kindergarten. There was this handsome boy in 6th grade and he was actually nice to me. I secretly fell in love with him at that age. I was 4 years old back then and yes I know, I’m such a flirt and for your additional information I also had a boyfriend an ex-boyfriend. Just so you know, I also had this bad memories because of my gayness in my elementary days. So this is what happened, I’m on my way to the canteen to review for our quiz bee and I was shocked because my schoolmates were there, cheering someone which I eventually knew that they are cheering for my gay friend bending his back like a scorpion. My schoolmates saw me when I was near at them and suddenly they said, “Hey! Look! Ryan is so flexible, can you do it?” and I said to them, “Oh is that a question? Come on, me, Wendell De Vera?” So I climbed up the table that is about like this tall and then I jumped, raising my hands like a bird and finally splitting my feet in the air. When I was about to land on the floor, my shorts were ripped like a skirt. I have successfully showed my famous JUMP SPLIT but they ended up laughing out loud because they saw my red underwear.

I’m talking about bad memories anyways so here’s something else. I felt ashamed when I was singing a graduation song when I was in elementary because in our school which is Diome Elementary School, valedictorians must have special numbers, but I ended up singing the song with wrong lyrics because of nervousness. Also, when I was delivering my salutatory speech in our high school graduation in Wesleyan University – Philippines Aurora campus. I had a runny nose and all I did was sniffing throughout my talk and I sniffed a little piece of the tissue and people in front of me were laughing.

I came a lot of experience in my 16 years of existence, Some are saying that I’m a worthless person, some would say I do not deserve this life, some would say I am pest of our society because of my sexuality. But then I always say to myself, “No matter how the world hates me for what I am and who I am as long as I am not belittling any people, I am confident to say that I am more humane than them.”

Again, this is Wendell Abaco De Vera, from the surfing capital of Central Luzon, Aurora. Thank you for listening everyone, nice meeting you.