The Love Vs War of Becoming a Parent

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Jennifer does not remember much she remembers the bright light above her and doctor upon doctor running around trying to do anything they can to save this baby. Minute went by and the precious little gem made it out alive but was barely hanging on. It was at that moment that she thought to herself how much she loved and hated every moment of this. She thought back to being told that she wouldn’t have kids, to finding out she was pregnant, to this exact moment and understanding that she’s someone’s parent but she doesn’t know how long it would be for. Deep down inside she knew no matter what happened she would always be their mother but she was beyond scared.

She was silent the only thing you could hear in the operating room was the sound of doctor’s talking amongst themselves. At that very moment she heard crying. The little peanut started crying and it was one of the best feelings in the world. Doctor upon doctor still rushing around the room but that sound of the baby crying was a sign from above that everything will work out.

Days went by in the hospital she was allowed to see the peanut but she was not able to hold or touch him yet because he was still being cared for by the doctors due to how early he was born. It was almost time for her to leave and although she didn’t want to she knew that in a few short weeks her little baby peanut Cameron would be coming home with her soon. Jennifer started analyzing parenthood again. Will I be good at it? Will he hate me? Will he grow up to be selfish like me? It didn’t matter none of it mattered. What did was the fact that she knew she would love this baby with all her heart and do everything to keep him safe, and although there will be plenty of wars to fight the moment he starts to grow but every ounce of love she has for him will outweigh the bad. Jennifer will fight these wars because she is going to be the best parent that she can to Cameron and prove that love will always win the battle.