Not Your Typical 16 Year Old

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“Rebecca! I said no more with that phone! Put it down!” my mom said.

“ Why? Why should I?” I said.

“Rebecca just do as I told you”she said one last time.

“I hate you” at this moment I knew things would be different between us. To make things worse I told her I wish she was dead.. I tried to take it all back but I couldn't take back what just came out of my mouth. It was physically impossible. So I just stood there with tears in my eyes. My mom was hurt, I could see it all over her face. One of my regrets that day was not apologizing right after I said it when I know I should have. Later on that day I apologized to her. She said it was alright.. she said she knew it was coming soon anyway. This was also around the time I found my youtubers..because of most of these people I survived.. people like NoahJ456, Cryotic, jacksepticeye, etc. these weirdos there are possibly the few people who can actually make me laugh and smile. For them I would do anything they would need in order to brighten their day.. but besides that I was never truly happy. Early December I was taken to the mental hospital called Arkham Asylum. I was seeing people who wasn't there, hearing voices in my head telling me to kill myself or kill my family. I could have kept it all to my self and let me die slowly, but when my family was involved in my mental state I couldn't let them get hurt, I didn't care if I got hurt but I did care about my family. So I stayed there for about a month.. They would have me try multiple medicines to try and “help” me. In order to get out I had to fake being okay and it worked.