My Immersion Experience

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My experience during the past few weeks has taught me that I should be more assertive and decisive. Coming from a male-dominated field, I actually thought I was too dominating as I felt I had to compensate for my femininity. My PDP assessment showed that I actually lacked that quality. I could’ve been a chameleon were it not for my lower dominating quality. During the ELP, my secret buddy also pointed out that I lacked confidence in myself. He said, “If you don’t believe in yourself, how would people believe in you?” and that really struck me. I have often felt that people underestimated me because of how I looked or acted. But what if people underestimated me because they see that I don’t believe in myself? I guess if there was one quality I wished to improve on, I would like to be able to build more confidence and to be more assertive in a crowd. I know that I have the skills, I just need to show people that I do have it.

Going back to the zip line, the experience itself wasn’t actually that scary. It probably took a maximum of 5 seconds jumping from the perch to reaching the middle where the ladder was waiting for me. The worst part was standing at the top and deciding to jump. That feeling was a lot like how I felt before taking the plunge and do the MBA. It was a huge change for me and I felt like it was a risk nobody who knew me didn’t really expect me to take. The immersion experience helped me eased into my decision and allowed me to feel that my risk was worth it. It gave me time for some self-reflection and allowed me to admit my weaknesses and uncover my strengths. At the end of it, I do hope that I end up becoming a better, more effective leader and discover what it really is that I’m good at. At the very least, I’m sure that my MBA would surely be a learning experience that will allow me to make lifelong friends and give me a better understanding of myself.